i'm sure i've forgotten some of the specifics in my bouts of rage...
so the monday before labor day my boyfriend dumped me for no apparent reason. it thought everything was going well and that, that night we were going to do some serious talking about life, etc- not that he would dump me.
the 2 excuses he gave were "we are 2 different people" and "i dont see us working out in the long term" which i replied "are you looking for something long term" he said no.
so needless to say i am pissed that he tried to use a gemeric line on me and thought it would work.
basically he never wanted to talk to me about the issues.
I went home to chicago for labor day, that was nice...
He sends me an email Sunday while I am in Chicago:
August 31 at 2:24pm
Hey. Hope you're enjoying home. Thank you for tagging the beach pictures. I hope I can see you when you get back, I will try to be more talkative. I'm dog-sitting the dogs right now. They miss blake so I'm letting them hang out on my bed for a while. How are you?
September 1 at 7:22pm
I am as well as well can be, I am enjoying being home in the summer and catching up with many old friends. I'll be back tomorrow in the late afternoon, if you want to see me you know where I'll be
So yesterday he sends me a text asking if I want to get a drink after work. I said sure. So we meet. order drinks, he offers to pay and I said "no i can pay for my own drink"
We sit down and small talk. he asks me if my brother is mad at him still. i say what? apparently my brother sent HIM a really angry email monday after he broke up with me.
then he says to me "I'm glad you're not mad at me" and I look at him and say "who said I'm not mad?" he says "well at least you arent overtly mad".
he said "i'm sorry about last monday"
i said "I'm sorry that you tried to feed me a bull-shit line and thought it would work"
then he said that he had been thinking about the future and i asked him why didnt he discuss it with me or ask what i thought, he didnt have an answer. then I asked him if me being in his life was more of a negative force than a positive and he said no it was more positive. he said things seemed to be getting serious and he wasnt sure if he wanted a serious relationship, i said again he should have brought that up because i dont know what i am looking for either and i was living day-to-day and that seemed to be working out great. then i told him to stop saying the same things over and over and to tell me the truth and he said that our views on life are different and that I have darker views and i'm a very intense person. I said to him, "did you ever think i was being sarcastic when i said those dark things in order to provolk a discussion from you?" and he stared at me because no he hadnt thought of that. I said I would have loved to know your views but you didnt want to tell me.
then i asked him "what exactly about me is it that made you want to break up with me?" i really wanted to know so i can improve as a person....
he said to me "Discussing that will do more harm than good"
so I yelled at him "I thought that's what we were Fucking here to discuss!" and I grabbed my purse and stormed out of the bar.
"more harm than good" who the fuck does he think he is? the only reason he wanted to meet with me was to make himself feel better about himself. and when i told him that he made me feel usless and like i was a last resort to hang out with the last week we were together he said nothing.
everything he said during that conversation was to put me down and make me feel like crap. at least i'm an honest person and if you ask me a question i will give you an honest answer. he wasted my time and now i'm super pissed and he did not know me well enough to know not to piss me off
**Oh for those of you who dont know- he moved in with one of my best friends after we started dating- so, yeah.**