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[Sep. 5th, 2008|12:19 pm] |
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i'm sure i've forgotten some of the specifics in my bouts of rage...
so the monday before labor day my boyfriend dumped me for no apparent reason. it thought everything was going well and that, that night we were going to do some serious talking about life, etc- not that he would dump me.
the 2 excuses he gave were "we are 2 different people" and "i dont see us working out in the long term" which i replied "are you looking for something long term" he said no.
so needless to say i am pissed that he tried to use a gemeric line on me and thought it would work.
basically he never wanted to talk to me about the issues.
I went home to chicago for labor day, that was nice...
He sends me an email Sunday while I am in Chicago:
HIM:
August 31 at 2:24pm
Hey. Hope you're enjoying home. Thank you for tagging the beach pictures. I hope I can see you when you get back, I will try to be more talkative. I'm dog-sitting the dogs right now. They miss blake so I'm letting them hang out on my bed for a while. How are you?
ME:
September 1 at 7:22pm
I am as well as well can be, I am enjoying being home in the summer and catching up with many old friends. I'll be back tomorrow in the late afternoon, if you want to see me you know where I'll be
So yesterday he sends me a text asking if I want to get a drink after work. I said sure. So we meet. order drinks, he offers to pay and I said "no i can pay for my own drink"
We sit down and small talk. he asks me if my brother is mad at him still. i say what? apparently my brother sent HIM a really angry email monday after he broke up with me.
then he says to me "I'm glad you're not mad at me" and I look at him and say "who said I'm not mad?" he says "well at least you arent overtly mad".
he said "i'm sorry about last monday"
i said "I'm sorry that you tried to feed me a bull-shit line and thought it would work"
then he said that he had been thinking about the future and i asked him why didnt he discuss it with me or ask what i thought, he didnt have an answer. then I asked him if me being in his life was more of a negative force than a positive and he said no it was more positive. he said things seemed to be getting serious and he wasnt sure if he wanted a serious relationship, i said again he should have brought that up because i dont know what i am looking for either and i was living day-to-day and that seemed to be working out great. then i told him to stop saying the same things over and over and to tell me the truth and he said that our views on life are different and that I have darker views and i'm a very intense person. I said to him, "did you ever think i was being sarcastic when i said those dark things in order to provolk a discussion from you?" and he stared at me because no he hadnt thought of that. I said I would have loved to know your views but you didnt want to tell me.
then i asked him "what exactly about me is it that made you want to break up with me?" i really wanted to know so i can improve as a person....
he said to me "Discussing that will do more harm than good"
so I yelled at him "I thought that's what we were Fucking here to discuss!" and I grabbed my purse and stormed out of the bar.
"more harm than good" who the fuck does he think he is? the only reason he wanted to meet with me was to make himself feel better about himself. and when i told him that he made me feel usless and like i was a last resort to hang out with the last week we were together he said nothing.
everything he said during that conversation was to put me down and make me feel like crap. at least i'm an honest person and if you ask me a question i will give you an honest answer. he wasted my time and now i'm super pissed and he did not know me well enough to know not to piss me off
**Oh for those of you who dont know- he moved in with one of my best friends after we started dating- so, yeah.**
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| Happy New Year! |
[Jan. 7th, 2008|03:47 pm] |
What a New Year! And only in the 1st week!
OUT WITH THE OLD
I decided to start the new year off with a clean slate. So I am single and ready to do what i need to do to be happy and lead the life i need to lead.
Ex-BF moved into the spare room, and has decided to move out Feb 1, anyone need a room???
IN WITH THE NEW
I honestly didn't expect so much newness to happen so fast but it did.
~ Ex-BF moved into the spare bedroom, So I now have my own space
~ Used my Christmas money to buy much needed drawing and painting supplies so I can be creative again
~ Bought tickets to a big New Year's Eve bash with my homosexual life-mate
~ I had a list of New Year's resolutions, mostly about what I want in my next relationship
and I kid you not
- Exercise more - in progress
- Date a scientist - check
- Date a foreigner - check
- Date the whole package - check
- Have amazing sex - check
- Go to more museums - check
- Spend more time enjoying the city - check
- train Betsy - in progress
- Finish a script - working on getting the programme
- Travel out of the country - depends on how much I owe the government, but I have some very
appealing offers!
It is only 7 days into the New Year and I have hit most of my list, and completely by chance.
New Year's eve at the Party Kev and I attended, we met a group of similar spirits and amongst them was a Belgian Molecular PetroChemist, single, handsome, and of legal age!
I will have to write more later but to get to the point, we kissed at midnight and were inseparable for 5 days until he had to leave for Belgium :-( |
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| Bored |
[Aug. 1st, 2007|07:51 pm] |
It's been a good while since I've updated. I graduated finally, and on time! I have job, which is nice except I am very BORED
Not only bored in the usual sense, bored with everything.
BORED with my job
BORED with hunting for a 2nd job
BORED at home cleaning & cooking. I do NOT want to be a home maker and I feel like that is what I am becoming out of necessity .
BORED with my relationship
BORED from not seeing my friends at all because it is summer, and that is just plain lame
BORED with out my Sarah & Ashley and therefore
BORED with not being able to afford to fly home to visit until Christmas
BORED with not being creative, I need to make something whether it be a film, painting, script. But I don't have time or people to do it with because no one has time
BORED with this country I need adventure and I need it now
At least Betsy Wetsy never ceases to surprise me :-)
I need more from life and out of it. I need to win the lottery
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[Sep. 19th, 2006|12:31 am] |
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| Your Life Is Worth... | 
$1,087,000 |
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[Sep. 10th, 2006|01:03 am] |
You Are Guinness
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You know beer well, and you'll only drink the best beers in the world.
Watered down beers disgust you, as do the people who drink them.
When you drink, you tend to become a bit of a know it all - especially about subjects you don't know well.
But your friends tolerate your drunken ways, because you introduce them to the best beers around.
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[Sep. 9th, 2006|11:24 pm] |
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| | NYC, in my flat | ] |
| [ | I am currently Emoting |
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| | Jem & The Holograms | ] |
| You Are a Henna Gaijin! | 
You're not Japanese, but you wish you were!
You can use chopsticks with your eyes closed, and you've memorized hundreds of Kanji.
You even answer your phone "moshi moshi."
While the number of anime videos you've seen is way higher than the number of dates you've been on, there's hope.
Play the sexy, mysterous gaijin, and you'll have plenty of Japanese meat. |
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| My Red Glasses |
[Jun. 24th, 2006|05:28 pm] |
What you have all been waiting for... the exciting story behind my new job.....
It was a day like any other day in of the summer 2006 in NYC. I was ready for my editing class, backpack full of learning devices, a ball cap and my ipod in my ears as I walked out of my dorm and up Lafayette towards campus. I was aware of the film that was shooting on Lafayette on my way to class, it had been there for the past 3 days, nothing new really, there are always film crews around NYC. So I wonder through in my own little world, like usual, when a man approaches me, yelling "excuse me Miss!" several times until I take my head phones off.
I thought to myself, hmmm does he need directions?
Until he tells me that he works for Spiderman 3, they are looking for non-union extras, and if I am interested to send an email to the address on the card he handed me and make sure to write where I was approached in it. Then he swiftly ran off. And I went to class.
As soon as I arrived home I sent the email of my interest. And the next morning I had a response back with a number to call.
So I call the number and ask for Ray. Ray begins to interrogate me about being a non-SAG actor, this is because I have the word 'film' in my email address. I eased his mind by telling him that I am merely a film student and that is why. He took interest in this and said we should meet to discuss the shoot.
We meet. I rescue him from a crazy actress 'the tomata', and we go to a wrap party for Enchantment, a disney movie about dancing. We talk about me being an extra, I am supposed to be a reporter..... and the reason he stopped me in the street is because my red glasses made me look like a reporter... and get this I almost never wear my glasses to class, i put them on when i get there, but that day was a complete fluke. Anyway He tells me that banana republic is sponsoring the film so I need to get an outfit from there the next day, courtesy of spiderman. Awesome I am pumped.
So he starts asking me questions about being a film student and how much time I have left, ect.
He tells me that he is starting his own Production Company, New World Media Productions, and that he has been working in film since he was 17.
Then he tells me that he needs an executive assistant and asks me if i would be interested... so I said yes.
and that is the VERY simplified version of how I got my job because of my red glasses.
So I havent actually acted in the reporter scene because SAG is being evil.
However I do get to go to a meeting with Ray 7 Sam Raimi.
And I want to tell you more but I will sound like I am bragging, which I am, because I am so excited.
4 years of film school only to get a job from the street |
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[Jun. 11th, 2006|02:26 am] |
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Q: "What possesd you to do this???"
A: " Well maybe I should just go there instead and avoid questions of my judgment. That is because shes worth it, and uses great stolen terms from the Britts. Hence the reason I'm am involved" |
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| Elijah Wood |
[Jun. 10th, 2006|11:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| [ | I am currently Emoting |
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| | Gogol Bordello | ] |
Went to the Gogol Bordello concert last night and it was amazing!! If you dont know who they are, you should check them out. They are the best Ukrainian Gypsy punk rock band ever!
I went with Lauren and we stood in line early and got spots at the very front against the railing and about 15 minutes into Gogol, ELIJAH WOOD CAME OUT AND stood infront of us and took pics of the show! he even took a picture of us too!!!
He also has the same digital camera as me!! The Canon Elph SD 550... I'm a nerd |
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